Drive: by Reverend Devin DeBry

What makes a person unique? Is it what they wear, who they know, what they do, or how they handle challenges? It is everything. No matter, we will always disappoint those that cherish us. No one can ever truly live up to the expectations others have in us. That’s what makes life both hard, and fun. There are always going to be people who would rather run from problems. Does that make them weak? Does that mean they don’t have the drive to succeed over all adversity?

To me, it doesn’t matter. What matters is how I see myself, and whom I allow in my heart. I am a fighter. I don’t quit no matter what. I will always strive to be the best I can be. And that makes my potential limitless. In my eyes there is nothing more disappointing than people who fail to live up to the potential in all of us. It’s just disgraceful. A slap in the face to whatever you believe in. If you can’t find the strength to face everything, and still stand strong, why bother trying anything? Life is full of obstacles we must overcome. Those of us that refuse to try need to stay out of my way. I seek to completely destroy everything and anything that blocks my way. I know what I want, and one day I will attain it. What makes me strong is my unbending strength of will and my undying resolve. What drives me isn’t fame or money. Those are useless things to strive for. You’ll never have enough. 

What drives me is to become stronger. Strong enough to never have to use my strength again and to have my strength wrap everyone at my side in it. To let those I love and care for always have my strength to rely on. I learned along time ago, quitting isn’t something I know how to do. If I had quit, I’d be blind in one eye, and probably dead. I have the drive to keep going no matter what lays in front of me. Those that wish to be in my heart and life need to know this. No matter what, no matter how you feel about me. I’m always going to be here. I will never stop. I was told long ago that my element was wind, and I have always lived life as a game. Now I’m serious. That playful gust from the past that tugged at everything is gone. In its place is the raging tempest I have become. I don’t seek out conflict. I destroy it. I don’t seek out pain. I obliterate it. I have learned to live life my way. No matter how much pain it causes me. It’s worth it. I once heard, “what’s worth the price, is always worth the fight”, and it’s so damn true. Life is nothing but conflict, and I won’t stop. As long as I can twitch my pinky finger, I will fight for what I believe in. It’s not a matter of what’s in my way anymore. It doesn’t matter to me how long it will take. I’ll be the strongest I know. I have that fire in me. It burns and drives me to be the best. To become what people have learned to expect from me an undying shelter that protects everything. And I’m already getting closer.

 I no longer wonder where my life is going to take me. It doesn’t matter anymore. Anyone who knows me should know I would give every ounce of life I have to shield him or her from all harm. I have no more doubt in my mind. One day, soon, I will be the kind of person that won’t need to flex to show my might. It will just radiate off me, empowering everyone around me. That is my drive to have true strength not might. I always thought of them as the same until now. That is why my life was filled with so much pain. I never understood the difference. Now, it’s all clear to me. I will weather whatever life has to throw at me. I will let those that love me share in my strength, and I will let those that hate me, have that hatred. It will make them stronger. They will one day surpass me, and I revel in that knowledge. It excites me to know that no matter what; I will make those that I’ve known so much stronger.

So, when someone asks me, just how far will I go for those that I love, the answer is simple. I will become whatever is necessary for them, from savior, to monster. My life isn’t my own, for the wind belongs to no one. It gives us all the strength to live. So I will emulate that aspect, and become the unstoppable zephyr that lies in wait for any adversity. I will always triumph. For that is the strength of my resolve. I wont quit. Ever. So be prepared, for the winds have started changing, and they bring forth something truly remarkable.

We’ve all had pain in our lives, we all fail sometimes, but when we look inside, we find the strength to get back up, and continue living. I know it’s not easy, hell; I’ve always been one to take the rougher road no matter what. That’s what makes life worth living, the endless opportunities. For me, all that I’ve endured has given me a talent with the written word, and a creativity I’ve begun to nourish. So no matter what I will go through, what any of us go through, I hope that we will all find away to make our inner pain one of our biggest strengths.

Reverend Devin DeBry is our youngest UCM minister.  Devin holds an Associate in Theology from UCM and was ordained in 2008 at the UCM Centennial Celebration. 

This is Reverend DeBry’s first submission of what we hope is many to the UCM blog.  We would like to encourage all of our ministers and students to share from their hearts the journeys that they are traveling.  You may reach Devin with questions or comments at d_debry@yahoo.com.

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